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Kama Sutra...winner like always


Kama Sutra...when I hear this I think of powders and oils and other sensual items. Umm. I guess not everyone hears that though, which is sad if you ask me (and since this is my blog...you DID). My bestie says she thinks of crazy sexual positions that men try to have their wives do, nearly always resulting in a trip to the E.R. Umm...no, not me. I think of a bohemian style packaging with wonderful scents inside it. And a feather duster for the dusts. Yum.

Ok, so I'll go right ahead and begin with the packaging. The dust bag comes packaged in a tin with the Kama Sutra boho wrapping around it. Once you get the lid off you will find a black bag with a plastic bag in it holding the Honey Dust. And a feather tickler for dust application. The dust is really fine, and it will pouf everywhere if you aren't careful...like baking cocoa style. Everywhere. I mean it.

You aren't going to want to put the powder into the pouch without the plastic baggy because of the fine nature of the powder. It will go through, it will make a huge mess, the whole nine. I actually keep mine in the tin without the bags at all. This works for me because of the ease of just being able to dip the feathers in and get to the powder.

Ok, now in actual use? Kama Sutra for the win! This Honey Dust is AMAZING!!! Seriously. It is so versatile it is disgusting. You can powder yourself before sex, after the shower (be sure you're dry first please), before a date, or just to go to the store. Really, this is a great item to make you feel sensual. And the duster is excellent for some sensual teasing in the bedroom :)

I wear mine daily, I have two flavors, Honey and Raspberry. It gets humid during summer so I put some on before I go anywhere in order to keep a bit more dry. The powder keeps you dry, as would any body powder with cornstarch (the main ingredient...along with glucose and flavoring). Just like diaper powder keeps a baby's bottom dry, this does the same for us adults (and it smells wonderful at the same time). I use it on my cleavage and my inner legs to keep dry and comfortable...and being kissable is a great side affect.

I also put the powder on after every shower (once I am totally dry). This gives me a slight scent and a very light taste...that way, when J kisses my neck, he isn't tasting perfume. Now, this does need care when used around the vaginal area because of the sugar in it (I sure am not a fan of yeast infections).

Honey Dust wears well during the day without the nasty clumping and gathering one would expect. It seems to just rest on the top of the skin and give a satiny feel to the skin. It comes off very easily in the shower and vacuums up if {try again...when} you spill it.

I have been using this product for years, and will continue to use it. I love it, and highly recommend it!!!


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Powder by KamaSutra



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Update from hell peoples :)


What have I been doing lately? Well besides watching the 1000 year flood waters recede back into the nasty ass Cumberland River where they belong, I have been packing and whatnot to move.

My Mother's Day was spent handing out cupcakes down the road from my house to other moms whose homes were under water when Nashville flooded. Oh yeah, in case you have been living under a rock, we found Atlantis...it is really called Bellevue and it was totally submerged. Much like I nearly was because my retarded ass needed to try to go to church. Yeah, that worked out well. I was flooded out of my subdivision, and evacuated to "higher ground." Bullshit. My so called "higher ground" flooded in front of my eyes and I made a mad dash through 3 feet or so if water to another city to wait out the rain. Hey, did I mention my kids were at home with J's mom while the fucking city flooded and I wasn't sure I would ever see them again. Yeah, that was great.

My birthday is in a few weeks as well...ugh. J is in San Diego working, and I am here, and I miss him horribly. I just don't know what to make of it all at this point. We were lucky this month, so let's see what is in store for us in the future :) Oh and the tree photo is to show you just how high some of the water in our area rose...mind you this is a dry area any other day.

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Stress sux


I am exhausted. Completely. Totally. Irreversibly (ok, maybe not irreversibly, but still). Exhausted. I cannot seem to stay awake for over a few hours at a time. I am stressed out all the time. I love J, but he keeps stressing me out. I hate moving, but I can't wait to get to San Diego so I can just relax for two days and get my damned head on straight.

I have reviews I need to do, cleaning, making sure the kids don't break anything while we are trying to sell the house, and a whole list of other shit I need to keep up on.

What makes it better? We need money. Yup, I need a job and I am freaking the fuck out about it. I guess I shouldn't; I just can't help myself.

That's it for the moment, look for an HNT tonight folks.

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Ouch...where the fuck did that come from?


So almost all of you know J came home last week. He was in MS and I had to go get him because he refused to wait until Friday to come home. So I drove to MS Tuesday and picked him up; we stayed the night in AL and came home Wednesday. We had a ton of fun together. I have missed him way too much for my own good since he left.

Then comes Friday night...

Oh my. Where do I even begin. Well, let's start with the fact that he has been gone almost a whole year and hasn't had a chance to really play with me, or any of the newer toys. Sure...he was here in November, but we were in Bostone, NYC and Philly during that time and we had the kids with us. So Friday night came. He seriously didn't want me to know what he was going to do to me apparently. There are never blindfolds in our play, but he used one.
And cuffs
And a flogger
And some clamps
And the Vamp (we won't get into that, but damn I am still sore)
And a g-spot vibe
And who knows what else...

It was like that for a while too.

I am still recovering. That's it.


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Blah, blah, blah...BULLSHIT


Oh sorry, I may feel a rant coming on here. I know, I know...where the hell are the reviews Alley? Well, geeze people give me a moment. I will have a new review or two up by tonight...YAY. Anywho...this blog isn't just about reviews...I have a life too (kinda).

Well, I love Facebook, but good heavens people...

QUIT BITCHING 24/7

I don't care that you haven't slept in two weeks because your child is teething. Been there. Done that. Get the hell over it.

I don't care if your husband won't help with the dishes. Lots of women do dishes all by themselves. Get the hell over it. Oh and if he notices that you spend 12 hours a day on FB bitching about him and he chooses to leave you...it's your own damn fault you idiot.

Gosh people. Aren't we just a wee bit selfish.

I haven't slept in months...sick kids, sick me and my stupid hospitalizations. I have been poked and prodded to Georgia and back. My hair is falling out, I was diagnosed as postmenopausal...blah blah blah. Who the hell really cares.
*Ok, well I care about that stuff, but that isn't the point of this rant*

I really wish people would make a concentrated effort to SMILE. Just once a day. That's all. Just a smile.

On a wonderful up note I had a fun experience online with J today. Hehehe. It was totally innocent until he decided I needed an orgasm. Um...ok? I will take it when I can get it. Plus he should be home soon so let the doors be ready to be locked for a long time!!!

I am demanding at least 48 hours child free. After that I will go back to being Mommy by day and sex toy by...well, whenever J wants. :) I have some restraints that need some SERIOUS attention.

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Hairloss and my sex life?

So if you happen to have read on my other blog you will know by now I was diagnosed with Alopecia (a condition that causes random to total, in my case total, hairloss). The catalyst for the Alopecia is unknown, which is really sickening to me. But what is my most recent concern? My sex life.

Why? Well I know J says he will still love me, and I don't doubt that, but I also know that he likes long hair. It kills me to think that when he comes home I may have, no...most likely will have no hair left on my head. I know he loves me, but what will he think of me? Will he be in shock, will he not mind at all, truly not mind? Will it be unattractive to him? I really believe these are valid concerns of a married woman.

*Sigh*

If you want to see what all is happening and how it all goes you can follow here.

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Thanks Cupid


YAY!!! SoI got my candle today from Cupid. Aww, he is so very wonderful. Basically Cupid loved my Valentine plans so much that he sent me a pheromone candle that I can use for Valentine's day for me and J. Eek!!! Look for a review to be posted soon :)

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New progress


Just a quick teaser to a new review y'all should be seeing soon :) So, where the hell have I been? Ok, let's begin with the last minute call from Daddy saying we had tickets to SoCal {home to me} for the holidays. Then I am on a plane. But oh wait! TSA managed to DROP my laptop. After I was done screaming at the guy I grabbed my laptop and boarded my plane. Now I am on a plane. Then I am in Cali with family and my very best friend on earth is getting married! Squee!!! I helped plan a wedding, drank way too much wine on several occasions, convinced best friend's fiance to fix said laptop, saw several family melt downs, and began speaking to my sister again because we both agree Daddy's an ass. All in all, a very bust few weeks. Oh, and I saw a long lost friend who caught her hubby in an affair and was too embarrassed to tell us.

Busy, busy, busy. Then we came back to hell {Tennessee to everyone else}. School was canceled due to slush {they think it is snow}. I can't look for a job while the kids are in my house people!!! School needs to resume. Now my life is back to boring, and I am kind of thankful for that. Oh, and everytime Tweetdeck goes off I reach to answer my phone. I am not in a happy place, but I am working on that. Sex toys won't give me the feeling I need, so I am back to scrapbooking. I have thrown myself into a huge project that I am stoked about! I am trying to get a scrap area together for me...possibly even set up my laptop and do photos for reviews there and all. I am really excited. I am even trying to come up with and idea for finishing the "Little Black Book" I started several years ago for J. Basically it is a book with photos of me for him. Now it will be a little "blue" book though because I bought a new album to put it in. Yay! If you want to you can follow my progress {J don't you even dare follow the book} you can do so HERE.

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I am dying for a new outfit. I want the whole damn thing. From head to toe. I want a sexy, make people gasp and stare kind of outfit. I am pretty much desperate for this. I want to get everything!!!
*Thigh high boots
*A super shockingly short skirt
*An amazing corset
*A collar
*New earrings

I want to get all dressed up and have somewhere to go. I have no idea where I would go, but it would be so much fun. I couldn't do it here, where we live now, although shocking small town America would be the best gift ever! I want to go out with J, all dressed up on his arm, back home in Cali. I want to have a whole day and night with just the two of us. Nothing to distract us, nothing to disturb us.

Why do I want this so badly? It would be a ton of fun for J and I to just be us together. Not having to be Mommy or Daddy for one day, and just being together. We could be alone. Just us. J would be my only focus and worry for the whole day and the whole night. We could even get a hotel room and leave the kids behind for one night. J could do whatever he wanted with me, no questions asked, no kids interrupting, and no phones ringing. One night of pure bliss, and I would look amazing. He would have to have me, the moment he saw me, he would need me.

We could go out to eat, or just walk around, I don't care! I just want to get all prettied up, impress him, make him want me, make him need me. I want to feel like nothing in the universe matters but us for one whole night. I would get some wine and we could go back to our room and have our fun and make the other guests jealous.

What I love about being with J is that he is dense. I mean that, really and truly. He has no idea when a girl is flirting or just staring. He is oblivious to all those things. I like having other girls look and want him. It reminds me that I am lucky enough to have him. I love it when they flirt and he misses it completely, yes love...you are that blind and I love that. I want to go with him and be reminded of all those things. Know that he is with me because he wants me and he loves me. I may have to get to planning this little overnight trip :p

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Benny Fell Out!


I am feeling a little off today. Mostly in large part because I am so fucking tired all the time. Running and going and moving and never ending bullshit of everyday life. God I miss J more than anyone human girl should ever miss her man. I have a longing just to crawl into his arms and stay there for a week. I feel helpless and lost right now, at least I know he does what he can to alleviate that pain for me.

A few interesting things from yesterday:

I made a trip to Joann's, hoping that I could get out of there in under $20. Yeah right, I am not entirely sure that has ever happened to me before, why the hell would it happen then? I rounded up some chain (not the one I wanted, but whatever), then some link pieces and some swarovski crystals and an amazing belly piece. Kids drove me fucking batty the whole damn time...I paid ($50 oops) a bit over budget, but still I did have to get the pliers for jewelry making, and they were 30% off :) Came home and made a cute body chain set that I love. It sets down into a necklace, and has two nipple chains (that will soon be fixed so they can connect to my rings since I am pierced), the center line runs down to a belly chain and hooks around the waist. Bright silver with AB stones and Lavender crystals.

I am already planning my next one...I want some slave chains for at home with J. I want two sets, one just like I described, but the chain will be about two sizes bigger for the slave look and rather than a necklace it will connect directly to a collar. Then I would also like to make one with wrist cuffs as well (Harem Chains), they make for quite an amazing sight and would look good on any sub or slave, especially if you like to frequent local dungeons...I know I would be well dressed for the occasion.

Then there was the Ben Wah incident...
Are you kidding me? I can hold those suckers in for a while normally, but yesterday they were slippin' and slidin' out in under a minute. I couldn't hold them in for shit! Un.Freaking.Real. No matter how hard I tried they just slid right out. I must have had some serious issues yesterday for that to happen to me. Back to the drawing board...I am going to wear them for an hour today come hell or high water they had better stay in for at least 15 minutes!!! GGGRRRR

Oh and...
Remember that amazing glass plug J bought me? Yeah. It still hasn't quite made it all the way in yet. Yipes! So I tried again yesterday...yup, I got hurt. I still hurt. Unreal. The damn thing never made it in, and I am in pain. The ass pain might well be worth it if that fucking piece of glass would just do what I ask of it. I swear they made it larger on purpose. I am determined...in the next four weeks, I swear it, that stupid thing will find it's way or it will become an overpriced paperweight.

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EEEEK!


Ok, so a few months back J saw some body chains that really reminded me of a chakra piece I wanted a few years back. Well, this was a non-piercing nipple chain with a full body chain attached. After looking at several examples I began to bug the living crap out of him to let me make my own. Of course he wanted to just buy one, but I am all kinds of crafty and since I haven't been crafting lately I thought this would be great for me. I am so very excited to say that he caved and I will be making my own!!! Yay me!

I love to do stuff like this and I can't wait to make my own body chains. I want to do a basic one first, of course mine will attach to my nipple rings and go down to my belly. Eventually I want gold rings so I can make a gold body chain for myself. I also want one in black that can connect to a collar, more like slave chains really. I saw some today that I just fell madly in love with! They were full out harem chains. Attached to a choker, then down to some rhinestone wrist cuffs and went down to the waist for the bellychain. I am so full of ideas I don't know what to do with myself right now.

I just know that when J sees this on me he will flip, he should absolutely fall in love with me all over again. I only hope I can make them at a good cost so I can have several sets for him to choose from as his moods change. As soon as I can tomorrow I am going to JoAnn's and Hobby Lobby to get what I need to get this thing made so I can show him that he doesn't need to buy it. Now, I am not stupid, I know doing things myself is a lot more costly than just buying them, but I am looking at it like this: J can choose what he likes and I can make it myself just for his taste and liking. He can choose the colors, he can choose the adornments and he can choose the chain types if he'd like. Come on now, how much better can it possibly get for a man. Plus I am making it for him. He will be in mind the entire time I am working on it, while I try it on and perfect it, and while I present it. This is his gift from me.

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I got it!

Well, J decided to be nice and loving enough (like it was in anyway really for me) to allow me to work more with the damn monster on my time. Conditions? Well here:
1. 3 times a week
2. NO ORGASMS

Like I really needed to be reminded of number two...I am not allowed to orgasm at all without prior permission anyway...duh boy.

I love him, I really do. I am so entertained by all this.

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Second tidbit...well not too much, especially in my little world. I am so tired all the time, I have no idea how I am going to make up for all the time lost with J in the physical contact area. In my mind it might look something like this:

After we come home from getting him we drop the kids off at his mother's house. Driving home is unbearable, silent, and you could cut the tension with a knife. I can hear his breathing, feel his hand tighten around my own, the smell of his cologne mixed with his own body. My hand tightens slightly on his; he looks at me with that smile that tells me I am in way over my head. I don't care. "What are you thinking?" The question surprises me, "wondering what you have planned at home." A sly smile crosses his lips, "I never said we were going home."

As we pull off the highway I am wondering what he could possibly have planned for us. He's happy I think to myself. I smile sweetly as we pull into our favorite restaurant. It's off to a appetizers, soup and drinks for us. That should lead so some for the both of us. After a nice evening (yes I skipped all of dinner because that is my time), we head back home for the night. We never even make it through the front door.

The jacket falls first, then comes the shirt...mine and his...

I will leave you with that.

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They must have screwed up the measurements he gave them...yup that's it, they messed up. He's gonna be mad as all hell. It's huge, way too big for me. Ugh, he'll make me try it anyway...I know him, he will. How can I get out of this? I don't want to use this monstrosity they made.

It is pretty though, clear glass, custom made with a not so slight curve. Smooth, brand new, and he did order it just for me, just to make me happy. Gosh, I guess I had better tell him I got it. The least they could have done is included a protective casing for it. What if it falls and breaks?

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You must be kidding? You haven't even seen it yet; it's way bigger than I thought it would be." J just sighed "you're being dramatic, let me see it for size. I know what I ordered and it wasn't that big." "Fine, but I am warning you, this could hurt me because of the size" I responded, hoping, halfheartedly, that he would side with me, I knew he wouldn't; I never win arguments, and whining like a seven year old wasn't helping my case. I opened the peanut packed box the glass toy arrived it, still mildly irritated that they charge one hundred dollars a piece for these things and didn't even include protective casing or anything, not you typical "toy" store if you ask me. At any rate I pulled out a piece of smooth clear glass formed and shaped with the curve custom added, the new plug sure is a sight, it's beautiful and pristine and well, glass!

I held it up in my hand, the damn thing is as big as my hand with the curve. J just laughed, "well it is a lot bigger than I anticipated, but guess what...you're using it anyway," I could hear the amusement in his voice, he could sense my apprehension. I could just see that smile, the one that says fight me, fine, but you will lose...you always do. "It's huge and it will hurt, no way!" Yeah, right like that ever had a chance of convincing him, please. And there it was, that moment of sincerity that would make me lose my mind. "Baby, come on, you have to try it at least once. I got this for you and I want you to use it. Just try it, if you hate it we will reassess. You know I love you." Well shit, that failed...I lost, right there. He can be so fucking loving and sweet, and I just stop in my tracks. I am caught off guard, even after seven years, he still takes my breath away, and I am rendered helpless. I need him and I have to make him happy. So there it was, I would try the toy, and I'd be damned if I didn't enjoy it for him.

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My new glass plug came the other day and I really deliberated on telling J it came. It was massive, well by my standards of course. I just couldn't believe it. But as big as it was I was enamored, it is gorgeous, amazingly perfect. Clear glass, so basic, yet so pretty.

I wish my camera was working so I could get a clear shot of it and post it, but I can't. We [he] custom ordered this piece, I love glass and he laid the specs out and had one made. I do love it, just wish, at the least, the widest part was a bit more narrow.

Of course J convinced me that I would need to use it, and I did. Holy cow! I am still in some pain, by only my own fault for being so damned determined. J never said I had to be able to get it all the way in the first time, but I had to do it for me, to prove that I would do anything for him. Well, it never made it all the way. Too painful. Oops :)

I am still fueled with that determination, I will continue to work until I can do it. I decided this morning that I would ask J if I could play with it without him around so that I could work and see if I can get used to it, that way I can show him when I do succeed. I am sure I would just love this beauty if it wasn't so damn big. We did decide that I could get a smaller (non glass) one. Not too big on the non glass part, but he won't pay the thirty some odd dollars for something I have already. He just said that I could get a smaller one; at least I am getting that much!

Please note:
I will write a full review once I am not so angry with the toy...so I can be fair.

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Oh me, Oh my...

Where do I even begin today? I have had a ton to think about the past few days and I have to say I am overwhelmed. I am consumed and obsessed with J. I love him so much I can barely handle it sometimes. He says he wants to mark me as his, so we have (the piercings), but I want something more, something more permanent. I want people to know I am taken, not just for now, but for life, forever.

I was only 19 when I first saw him. I was floored, not the way a girl is taken back when she sees an amazing guy, but speechless and in love. I thought for a while I was nuts, but I'm not. I remember saying so quietly, under my breath, I have to have him, I need him. After talking to him for a while, apparently rather late because everyone else had gone home I decided I was his. Of course he didn't believe me when I said I had never done anything like this before (as we walked back to my room for the night). I meant it though, I was little miss perfect, never wavering, I did what I was supposed to. I had my slip-ups here and there, I did drink, I partied and I had just come out of a 2 year hell hole relationship to which I was hopelessly bound.

So how did I figure out that I loved him? Easy peasy, I knew...the moment I got close to him I forgot all about my little relationship issues. When I am with J all my problems disappear. I have no worries, no fears, nothing. I am happy. I find all of that incredibly ironic. Why is that? Well simple really, we fight. A lot. Always. At each others' throats. Seriously. You can't even imagine it all. But if I couldn't stay with him I would be hopelessly lost. Even now, I can't function properly, and my mind wanders to him at least once ever three minutes, remembering, missing, and hoping he will come home fast. I need him.

Don't get me wrong, I can take care of myself, I am not pathetic, just madly in love, more so than I ever thought possible. I was sure when I saw him that first time I was crazy, but I still feel that way, the way I did that night 7 years ago.

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